Defeated for a moment

 

 

This blog for me is sometimes a nice release away from my daily grindings. I enjoy looking at the posts that Tenley and I write and I hope that others do as well.

Death is something that we all, no matter how much we don't think about it, know is coming one day. Personally until 2 days ago I had never experienced the unexplainable pain of loosing someone who was an extremely important and influential part of my life. I can now say that I understand the pain that a lot of other people have been through. On that day I felt defeated for a moment. Its a very uncomfortable feeling. Knowing that you will never get to talk to that person again. I thought wow there are so many things I wanted to say to you. So many things I wanted to thank you for. In the days to follow I have felt that pain again but am fighting it with all the strength I have as I know that he would never have wanted me to be sad. It definitely put things in perspective for me. I see what and who is really worth time and effort and the things that I worry about (a lot of the time) are not really worth the worry at all. The people who think your awesome are the people to love. 

 My grandfather Ian Baker Heywood loved me with all of his heart and I Ngahuia Williams love him with all of mine.

This was his favorite song. Its a brilliant song

Tomorrow is his day. 

We here on earth are going to celebrate your life. Thank you so much for everything you thought me and all of the knowledge that you passed onto me.

N

xx